Thanks so much for making me happy. :)) Chatting with you made my day. Hehe. Super FUN!

Anyway, I had my period this morning and I suffered the worst cramps of my life. Seryoso sobrang sakit. Huhu. I took an Advil and fortunately, the pain disappeared after a while. I'm back to my happy self again. Hehe.

I don't feel like it is a Sunday today. It's only me and my tita here in the house. I was suppose to go with my parents to a rally because my Tito is running for Barangay Captain in Muntinlupa. He's my dad's closest cousin that's why he's really full support. Papa doesn't even go home much nowadays because they're busy with the campaigns. So anyway, I wasn't able to go with my parents because they left really early and Mama doesn't want to wake me up daw. Aww, I tell you Mama is the sweetest.

So here I am at home. Feeling alone in a very happy way. Hehe. My brother is not here so super solo ko 'tong computer. I hate it when he's here kasi ang kulit nya eh. So there. Our home is very quiet. I miss Mama. I'm also hungry right now. I hope they'll bring me merienda. Hehe. I'm too lazy to cook. But I might cook Spam later.

I'm kind of addicted to PBB Celebrity edition 2. Hehe. I know right. Pang masa. But I really enjoy watching it. I like Riza and Will so much. The show is very entertaining. Hehe ;)

I'll see you in 4 days :))

Tomorrow:

-Class cards distribution
-Meeting with thesis adviser
-Tuition fee assessment

I have to do all these things tomorrow and that means I am going to school. And that means I'm going to Makati. And that means I'm going to Glorietta afterwards. OMG. I'm so afraid to go to Glorietta. I want to have my lunch in Greenbelt instead. But then again I don't feel safe there either. I don't feel safe anywhere in Makati right now.. except in my school.

Gosh. I'll pray for this tonight.

I was chatting with Trish yesterday afternoon when I heard about the news. At first, I wasn't really bothered 'coz it was said to be an LPG explosion at Luk Yuen (it happened before). I searched the net for some breaking news and read that apparently, an explosion as powerful as that couldn't just come from an LPG leakage.

I was certain that it was a bomb even before the PNP or whoever confirmed it. Hello 'til 3rd floor yung nasira.. It couldn't just be an LPG tank.

I texted my mom rightaway 'coz she was in Makati yesterday. Thank God that the incident was already over when she got around the Parksquare-Glorietta area. Hay buhay. Buti na lang talaga.

I feel bad for the people who died and got injured.

I feel so involved in this traumatizing incident because Glorietta is like a third home for me (and I think for every Assumptionista out there). The walkway from Parksquare to Glorietta 2 is where all Assumptionistas pass by 'coz it's the nearest way from our school in San Lorenzo Village. Whenever I watch the news, everything just looks very very familiar. Omg. Buti na lang sembreak na.

Napapaisip ako.. Kung may pasok pa kami, pano na? Baka kasama ako sa na injured or worst, sa namatay. 12-2 ang break namin sa school and Assumptionistas usually spend their breaks at Glorietta.

This is really bothering. Nakakatakot.

I wasn't so egzayted about my sembreak during the past days 'coz I know that I'll have nothing to do here at home naman (except for eating, eating and eating!) but everything changed 'coz today, our computer got fixed already. It was upgraded and we're going to buy a new monitor on wednesday. Yey! :)) Now I'm so excited for sembreak. For sure paunahan kami palagi ni kuya gumamit. Hmf :P

Three days of staying at home due to bad weather is not a good idea.. at all. I'm so bored out of my skull.

Wednesday, I revised Chapter 1 of our Business Research then played Diner Dash afterwards. Thursday, I finished the book Kafka on the shore. The book was really poetic and I found meaning in every text. I even wrote down some parts of the book because the message really inspired me. Friday, which is today, I started on the book Love in the time of Cholera. I want to finish it soon. I ate a lot today! As in literally! There's something about the rain that makes me hungry all the time :P

No classes again tomorrow. Well, I don't really have classes on Saturdays. Haha. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow 'coz I want to go out. I will! Or I'm going to die here. Hee hee. Egzaj! ;)

1 Keeping a blog. Writing is my favorite way of letting out whatever feelings I currently have. And keeping a blog is like making a scrapbook of my life. It's nice to have something to go back to after, say 10 or 20 years. Ü

2 Reading books. I have finished only one book this summer. How sad. I miss the feeling of getting so engrossed and carried away in what I read. Someone please take me to a shopping spree @ Powerbooks.

Anyway, I fixed my livejournal. Seems like someone is going to update regularly again. After a 78648294 years, it's great to be back. Ü

My stomach was somewhat upset this morning when I woke up so my day did not start so well. However, thinking about my 12-hour sleep changes my mood into a jollier one. I love waking up with the rain knocking outside my window, with the smell of earth and with a cold air. It’s priceless. I think it’s one of my favorite cheap thrills. It’s only on weekends that I get to make bawi the lost hours of sleep ‘coz I rarely complete an 8-hour sleep during school days.

I’m craving for a vanilla ice cream. I know I’m so weird. The weather is already cold but I’ve been craving for an ice cream and a shake. Like the Zagu ones with pearls. I want I want!! Have you tasted Jollibee’s new Rocky Road Brownie Ice Cream? I think it’s yummy. I’m such a fast food slave. I must stop eating in fast food chains. I’ve done it before (like I’ve really stopped eating at FF chains for 3 months or so); I must be capable of doing it again.

I really want to try boxing. I want to have a sport – oh please. I’d like to believe that I’m NOT athletic even though I played for our basketball team back in high school and I’ve been a cheerleader since grade 4. OK, I admit, I AM athletic. My friends in college won’t believe that I’ve done all of those cheerleading & basketball stuff. I think athletic girls are not mahinhin that’s why I don’t want to be called athletic even though somehow I am. Haha! I like the thought of me being a mahinhin girl. Anyway, back to boxing, there’s this newly opened branch, which is super near my school. It’s walking distance lang. But then again I need a companion. I hope Trish is serious when she told me she wants to try boxing too.

About school, well, I only had three out of five school days last week because of Florita. On Wednesday night, I prayed that classes would be cancelled on Thursday because I don’t want to attend my Law class. I wasn’t able to memorize the terms he asked us to memorize and I don’t want to be on deck. Mygosh. The subject is really demanding - and get this: it’s not even a MAJOR. Like, hello?! Good luck na lang saken. Can’t wait for this semester to be over. But then again, once this sem is over, that would mean I only have 3 semesters left - and off I go to the real world. I’m not ready yet. Ohmy. NONONO.

It’s Kapatiran week in school next week. Bamboo will have a concert on the 19th and it’s going to be sponsored by MTV. Cool. I’ve missed the Pupil, Stonefree, etc. concert the other week so I don’t think I would want to miss this one. Time to get active! I’m already a Junior (huhu). Gotta make the most out of AC. Haha!

I want to watch the Pussycat Dolls in Araneta on July 28. Someone give me a ticket and I will love you forever! :)

But yeah, it’s always easier said than done. With all honesty, I can say that what I’m going through right now is really a tough situation. But being the Joan that I am, you won’t find me in one corner sulking/crying over my problems. Instead, you’ll find me laughing more than the usual, lulling myself that things will be okay soon. I can say I’m quite good in putting an act. I can always pretend and show everyone that I’m happy – even if I’m not. Not a slight hint of sadness will show – that’s an assurance. But like most things and people, I can only do it to some extent. I also get tired you know. In Filipino, “tao lang, napapagod rin”.

I face so many problems in my life right now. But as Bianca Gonzales would put it, I know “I’m gonna come out a better person”. I’d like to believe that I have endured so much in my lifetime already so what’s the point of giving up now? It’s not like I’m the kind of person who get “sindak” by problems easily. DEFINITELY NOT. But you know, times like these happen. It just… happens. And I’m certain that something good will come out of this situation I’m in. I’ll just have to charge it to experience. It’s amazing how I can still be optimistic despite everything. I’m not losing hope yet but I’m getting tired. I swear. Sometimes, I feel like I just want to lock myself up in my room and cry the whole day but I can’t seem to bring myself to do that. I wish I have someone to show compassion, someone I can cry the whole night with, someone who will tell me what I want to hear... but that’s a different story altogether. I just really wish I have someone. Period. I don’t want to hold any grudges to anyone. My life’s so dramatic. Like more dramatic than what your favorite teleseryes air on tv.

I don’t want to get stuck on this situation. I’M SO TIRED ALREADY =c

Okay, so first day of school was kinduv fucked up. My shoes killed my feet. So much! Kaasar kaya. I'm not sanay anymore. Sobrang nasanay ako ng naka-flipflops lang. So there. Ang sakit ng paa ko. Wtf. At 7:30 I'm already in school. Loser. Kala ko kasi Monday eh, I forgot na it's Tuesday pala. 10:40 pa 1st class ko pag Tuesdays&Thursdays so I stayed lang muna sa lib. Buti na lang Trish was there na rin. Haha. So kwentuhan lang :)) Okay naman the rest of the day. Haha. Lesson na agad sa Marketing. So goodluck to ourselves naman. Haahaaaa. Pics with Trishie!!

After lunch, I left the house na. Went muna to SM Sta. Rosa 'coz I need to buy something. Went to Town na after that. Ate my lunch at 1 PM and then ikot ikot lang muna. Mark arrived ng mga 3:30. We went to National 'coz I hafta buy my school things. Tas dumating na rin sila Rye & Giselle at 4:00. Rye introduced his gf to us. Ok naman. She's really friendly to me. Bait din. We went to Gerry's to eat. Kwentuhan. Reminiscing our high school days. Saya naman.. Kakamiss. Tawa kami ng tawa. What can you expect pag nandun si Carrera, right? And Rye was full of food for thoughts.. "Ang past dapat tinatawanan na lang".. Um. Okay! Haha. Pero bakit ka bitter? Hehehe. Tas mga banat na "Sabi nga ni Tim Yap.." Ok, so most of you can't understand what I'm saying here. Mga kabatchmates ko lang siguro makakaintindi. :P

So at 8:00 PM, I'm home. I just prepared my things for the next day 'coz back to school na.
I love this day. Happy Independence day!

So we left at 8:00 AM yesterday. We're first headed to Canyon Cove in Nasugbu, Batangas but on our way there, we witnessed an accident on the road. OMG. It was the very first time in my nineteen years of existence to witness a full-on accident. A jeepney slammed on a bus which I think was the fault of the jeepney driver. I don't know the real story though, he might've been going on a fast speed or maybe he lost break or something. I've witnessed how the driver was trapped and was helped removed as he was stuck on the driver's seat. He was full of blood. From head... to toe. OMG. I was really devastated, I wanted to cry right then and there. (Exactly why I cannot take Nursing as a course no matter how much anyone brainwash me.) The passengers were one by one removing themselves from inside the jeep each of them also full of.. blood. They sat on the sidewalk and they were crying. Oh, God. That scene was really heartbreaking, I tell you. I don't know what it all means, though. Like, why I witnessed it and why I felt that way. I guess it's a reminder that we really don't have any idea what will happen next to our lives. We can be outrageously happy at one moment and be sulkily crying the next. I'm still trying to figure out the message God wants me to realize. OMG. I hope no one died, though. I didn't see what else is happening on the place of the accident as I don't have the heart to look anymore. I had to sit down when I thought I've seen enough..

So anyway, it took me sometime to recover from the shock of witnessing that accident. I had to pick up a book and distract myself so that I won't be able to think of it anymore. At 9:40 we're already in Canyon Cove. I had fun watching the waves. Parang ang sarap mag-senti on the sea shore. OMG. Haha. I took pics of the scenery and then we were toured around the place. Then we had our lunch and left at 12:30. At 1:20, we're already in Canyon Woods, Tagaytay. OMG. The place was great. It was really breathtaking. I again took pics of the scenery. We ate merienda consisting of sandwiches and coffee! As in Kapeng Barako. It was orgasmic. Ang sarap, mehn. So much! After that, we just checked out the amenities and then we were toured 'round the whole place. At 4:00 we left the place na and then we went to Pav because my dad is there. Mom bought some things pa and then at 7:00 PM we're home na. It was a long day but i enjoyed it nonetheless. I heart Canyon Woods! <3

I was tagged by Ley :))

Instructions: Name 10 of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick 10 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not use things that someone else has already used.

1. New beginnings. I love new beginnings :)) Nothing beats starting all over again. New chances. New ways.
2. Waking up with the rain pouring. And smelling the sweet scent of the grass.
3. Granted wishes :))
4. Being able to go out of the house. I'm an outdoor person eh. Big deal mehn.
5. Writing. 'coz it helps me deal with my life issues properly. Like whenever I have to get something off my chest, I just write - and it really helps!
6. Studying in Makati where everything is a taxi away & where you can see all the fab people & where you can live a fab life.
7. Knowing that the MNG stuff you are eyeing is sold half the price! OMG.
8. Nice conversations with sensible people. It's priceless.
9. Looooooong baths.
10. Reading a book that I can totally relate with and evoke different emotions from me. EMO na to! Haha.

Okay, so I tag Chesca, Ivory, Ysha, Nix, April, April V., Maye, Dianne, Sarah & Nessy.

I volunteered to do some work for my momma today. I wrote names & tel. nos. on each of those 500-piece leaflets. Yeah, 1 ream mehn. I had to take a couple of breaks 'coz my hands are nangangalay. Haha. That got me preoccupied the whole morning. I'm actually happy about it because I've been productive! I forgot to watch the OC last night and I missed it this afternoon. Gosh, I'm so far faaaaaaaar behind! OMG. I did some abdominal exercises last night and I got really tired afterwards. I didn't do any abs exercise -or any exercise for that matter- the whole week last week so I think it's taking its toll on me. So after exercising, I decided to sit down and then lie on my bed to rest for a while so that I can wash my face and sleep but I got really sleepy and my body felt so heavy! For a moment, I thought I'm going to get sick but I tried to fight the heavy weight that's pulling me. And I'm here now, healthy as ever. Whew. I really thought I was going to get sick! I just felt so weird last night. Anyway, I've been reading the book Last Chance Saloon by Marian Keyes and there's this character named Fintan that reminds me so much of Andy. OMG. Fintan has the same illness as Andy. And I must say that the book had helped me understand more of Andy's situation. It has also familiarized me with some terms. Like, I now know that it's lymph nodes not lymph notes. And the Hodgkin's disease not Hatchkins. Oh yah, you can laugh now. At least I admit that I WAS wrong =) Haha. That's what I love about Chick Lits, it's not all about happily-ever-afters and stuff. It's actually full of information. Useful information, I must say. I don't get it why some people hate Chick Lits reasoning out that it leads us to wrong beliefs and a make believe world. Oh! come on now. Chick Lits are like the most enjoyable read you can ever lay eyes on. OMG. I can pass as an endorser for Chick Lits. Wtf. Haha.

OMG. 5 days to go!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've never been this excited before.
We're off to Canyon Woods and Canyon Cove tomorrow. I better charge my cam now. Update you when I'm back.

I'm feeling depressed again. ARGH. Watta lyf mehn. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I want to be happy. I deserve to be.
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So yesterday, mom, dad & I went to the mall 'coz it's so hot at home. I was supposed to have my haircut na rin but then my hairstylist at David's wasn't there and Fix was fully booked so ERR. Bad vibes. I really wanted to have a haircut na so when we got home napagtripan ko yung bangs ko. I cut it myself tas biglang pagkakita ko sobrang ikli na. ARGH. It's a mess. I hope it grows quickly. I shall shampoo it 3x a day. HAHA. Overrr. I should get a haircut soon. I WANT I WANT!

My life's really boring right now kaya I make a fuss out of li'l things -- even my bangs. What the F.

Whoo-boy! 11 F-ing days to go!

-Sobrang benta sakin yung All About Love movie nila Angelica P. HAHAHA. Can't wait to see it. My fave line is "My life is a mess" followed by hagulgol. HAHA:P Sabi ni Rc sobrang pang masa ko daw, sabi ko, DUH, suportahan ang pelikulang Pilipino! What the F mehn. If I know!!! HMP.
-Enrollment yesterday. I'm so thankful that AC isn't super high tech yet when it comes to enrollment. At least I have a reason to go out and stuff.
-I tried to have a DVD marathon last night but then surprise! surprise! I FELL ASLEEP. What the F. Ha-ha. I'm not even halfway through my first movie yet. HAHAHA.
-OMG Kristal and I aren't block mates in Stat1B. BOO. Usapan na eh. I'm gonna miss all our kulitan, kwentuhan and chichi marathon! UGH.
-On the brighter side, Trish and I are block mates in ALMOST all of our subjects. Great :)) Lavet.
-Remember the list of things I want to accomplish before school starts? Well, as of today, I've only accomplished 2 out of those 9 things. Ha-ha. That's how lazy I am. Boohoo.
-13 F-ing days to go and I'm out of here. CAN'T WAIT!!
-New Albums uploaded in MY MULTIPLY:))

I want to do plenty of things with my life. I want to experience everything to the extremes but unfortunately, someone/something is preventing me to do so. It is so difficult, I tell you. This might be complex to understand because I know I am writing vaguely.

I wish I could tell you everything, though.

"I'm depressed with my life" ang drama ko ngayon. Hence, my favorite line "WATTA LYF MEHN". So there, go figure.

SHETT~ Dalawang tulog na lang!!! Ugh.

WATTA LYF MEHN. WATTA LYF!

My day had been short but fun. N0w nlang ulit ako nkalbas after exactly 1 week. I know, right. WATTA LYF MEHN. Ang saya. Gets?

I gave my bestfriend a star pillow today. Nacutan lng ako so I bought it 4her. Nagustuhan nya! Can't wait 4our bonding day at Mall of Asia :)) We shud try the IMAX theater! I'm excited!

kisses! :*

Here's a rundown of things I want to accomplish before school starts:

1] Get a new haircut. My 'do right now is okay but for some reasons I want a new look. I guess I'm tired of seeing the same old, same old me. I've pretty much spent this afternoon scanning the pages of magazines to look for something I'll like but to no avail.

2] Finish reading all the books I bought. I might even read Eleven Minutes, The Alchemist and Shanghai Baby once again. These are really good books and there are quotes in them that I want to underline but can't find by just scanning it. So I decided I'm just going to read it again.

3] Clean my study table. I want to get rid of all the scattered papers and stuff I don't need.

4] Prepare myself for the real world. I'm an incoming Junior. WEEEEEEE! :)) Exactly how am I supposed to do this? What do I mean by preparing myself? Hmmm. It's time to decide for my majors. Do I go for Entrepreneurship or Corporate. HELP?

5] Clean my room. This is the broader aspect of #3. Why is it so easy to mess up my room while so difficult to tidy it up? Ugh. I have some serious arranging to do. I should keep in mind that it pays to be organized.

6] Exercise regularly. Don't jinx it. Heehee. I was supposed to start today but I had my period and experienced the worst cramps of my life. I know what you're thinking, excuses! excuses! Ha-ha. But seriously, I forced myself to sleep just to avoid feeling the pain.

7] Write, write and write. For all the obvious reasons, I guess.

8] Go out with my best friend. Kahit watch lang ng movie or eat ng cheesecake? Ano ba?!

9] Fix my cork board. I haven't touched it since June!! What the F? I'll have some pictures printed out and post some thingamajigs on it. I'll post a pic of it when I'm done! Only time can tell when! Hahaha.

That's all for now. I'll add more when it hits me. Okay, bye.